my greatest mystery

i wish i could paint you or draw you.

i wish i could write you with words-

books and books of you.

i wish i could play you on the stage;

all that you are in one performance.

i wish i could make perfume of you-

capture your scent forever.

you in once embrace, just to hold;

still and strong.

i wish i could sing you out- 

a song my heart knows well.

i want to see you in the eyes of strangers

and looking back at me in the mirror.

be my reflection. 

i'd like to take your picture...

but i can't.

there are not enough water colours to paint you,

not even the greatest imagination holds a picture of you.

there are no words worthy or true enough.

all that you are could never be played, like a character,

made of merely human parts.

your scent too fragment to take in.

you are my greatest mystery, 

i will not stop searching

#namsong

#abouttoday...

a little song I wrote to help me remember some important Vietnamese words- loosely translated below:

"hell-o hell-o hell-o
thank you thank you thank you
goodbye goodbye goodbye
sorry sorry sorry
pineapple..."

the locals are #lovinit 

#adventurehands

its been seven days since i started my 2.5 year journey into the world of Australian Sign Language. I find it creative and enchanting... it's a transparent space where your communication failures and successes are brought to the surface and there is something very vulnerable in that. Our teachers are deaf and we communication with our hands, with our face. It's a learning environment unlike any other.

In many ways i feel like a child again, yet now i'm completely aware that i'm discovering things for the first time. Every common noise is heightened; the sound of pen to paper, someone drinking from a water bottle, even breath and breathing but the silence is still louder than any of that. The room is full of  the sound of things we've never put thought into before, because we can hear them. I can't imagine what it would be like to never hear someone sing or to feel the beat but never hear the music...
Even now I'm starting to see things differently, I feel a change in me already- the way i see things, my senses and the ability to observe and read behaviors. Its a powerful thing to be able to communicate effectively in this way and this study will open up, for me, a whole new community of people to know and love. 
A language so expressive and beautiful should be learnt by all. Imagine how much more effective we  could communicate if we were aware and controlled our face and hands, our body language.

the silence is deafening, deafeningly beautiful...